i need to smile once more. as i recall seeing my candid picture that taken by my friends i look so fierce. even when i smile i just look fierce, like i'm in anger, motionless, sadness on the face..
as i really wanna smile once more like i use to, being happen with everything, the most happiest time is when i was with you, as i really can feel that i'm really happy when i with you...as we say happiness. i really could feel that..
there is the only time i felt so strong, so deep and touched...as time passes it's been a year i still couldn't find that sort of happiness back to me. keep making myself smile and feeling happy by shopping, hanging out with friends chat with the family, contribute to gakkai, it still doesn't feels satisfying.
as i could say i really miss you, i miss being with you. but everything as move on.
being single in UK and living in a lonely apartment feel even more depressing. i could do what ever i wanna do, but nothing is right enough to do them. and right now i could feel myself as one of the single in sex and the city series. i know i watch too much drama.
is it home sick?? well it couldn't be cause before that i couldn't wait to get out of Malaysia. i did it! but why i still feel something is missing?? what could it be??
MY JOURNEY BEGINS NOW...2012
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